I'm a horrible finisher.. :(( Its a terrible habit that i'm trying to change.. This is about change & commitment to change. For good.. I have never been much of a blogger either..I never thought I'd blog but after jumping back on the fitness wagon, a blog dedicated to just that part of me seemed like an awesome idea to document all my thoughts & progress.. I actually really love this idea & look forward to it everyday as i see my body changing..
The past 10 or so years have been the most challenging for me as far as weight & focus on health.. Or lack of..I was never an overweight person.. All my life i was a rail thin lady. I was size 3/4 jeans when i married my DH. I was 139lbs after the birth of my third baby in 1997. I was 26. At this point in our lives, the issue of weight had never even crossed my mind.. It was never an issue for me. My DH was a soldier in the army & he kept fit for the most part doing PT every morning, of which always drove my initiative to keep our lifestyle healthy for him. And consquently for me too.
It wasnt till my husband left the military in 2000 and our third child was in Pre K that our relativley healthy lifestyle turned for the worst .. :( To make matters worse, I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. I was put on replacement meds, but i took for granted that they worked & that my metabolism wouldnt change much..
I was 140 (5' 4") then & pretty content with my weight. (although i did notice 1 small back roll that i wasnt happy with).. But it wasnt till we moved off post for the last time & bought our house that attitudes about staying healthy went completely south. I took my health for granted; not realizing diet was especially important for me because certain foods i was consuming actually surpressed my thyroid function..I didnt realize this till fairly recently. Sometimes I look back at pics & see how thin i was when DH was in the army.. we both had small waistlines. His PT results kept mine in check. In our new house our family expanded by 2 more beautiful babies & thus so did our waistlines lol..
But i reflect on that time in our young lives that even though we were thinner, we probably were not necesarily ideally healthy. I have realized now that what i eat, how much, and preparation of (some raw veggies & some fruits can cause goiters in the thyroid) Are just as important as my daily workout activity. weights are an absolute neccesity for me..One of the side effects of my meds is muscle loss.. That scares me enough to get my act together to avoid other problems later in life..The health of our bodies is so very important! The invincibility of youth fades with age!
Around October 18, 2008, at 40 years old, my Dh was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes. We worked together to lose weight & get healthy but i am realizing now that to really love myself, this is a journey that i have to do on my own..It was by biggest mental challenge. And a huge emotional one. I wanted to lose weight badly but i failed at doing it on my own..Since my husband's diagnosis, i have lost and gained 25 pounds TWICE in a row. That kills me every time i think about it..This is my blog about fixing what i did to myself the better part of 10 years. I am 39 and in 8.5 months I will be 40..Its about time i finally love myself enough to take care of me. I have only one me, and my kids have only one mom..I love you, me!! lol..